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2018-04-21T00:12:54+10:00
I think the bullying I experienced from the beginning of primary school
right up until the end of high school was largely effective. it has
affected me in such a profound way that I am just becoming aware of how
it shaped me as a person.
I am so worried about being alienated and being excluded. I constantly
feel as if people's negative social behaviour towards me is always about
me. It almost never is. I can't take criticism at all. Any little
negative comment towards me sends me into a spiral of anxiety.
I absolutely love politics. I want to be a true revolutionary, and be a
hero and sacrifice myself for the revolution. I want to dedicate my life
to the struggle. But it is a miracle I have gotten as far as I have in
the world of real world communism.
I can't tolerate negative social interactions. I take political
criticisms as personal affronts. I am just learning the difference
between the two. I am riddled with anxiety and I feel as if I have to do
everything perfectly. It takes me half a week to recover from this.
Bullying has so perfectly neutered my self esteem and integrated me into
the prevailing forms of ideological thought. My inability to fit in has
been perfectly answered with social exclusion and emoional manipulation.
The problem with socialism is that it *does* take too many evenings, and
we brutalise each other by the way capitalism promotes competition
within the working class.
My response to this is to actually carry out what we were taught
hypocritically in catechism. I guess my only response to remedying the
trauma we exact on each other at the individual level is just to
practice agape.
We truly are dependent on each other, as Alasdair Macintyre says. I
don't care how conservative this sounds, I'm sick of what neoliberalism
has done to the social integration of the people in my country. I feel
so ashamed to talk about the things I am interested in.
My best friend, an Italian citizen, has to stop my habitual apologising
after I feel as if I have talked too much. He has noted many times how
australians are rude, uncaring, distant, uninterested in each other, in
short, atomised and pathetically indifferent to other people.
Life is too beautiful for things to go on this way. Human friendship and
kinship is too important to allow us to have it swept away.
Say NO to bullying. LOVE the people around you.