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I've felt pretty weird the last few days, mostly about my ex's text from last week. I texted them again last night after talking with C. about how I felt with all of that. Maybe that was a mistake, maybe not. I still have a lot of feelings for them and I do hold onto hope that we'll actually work through things and be better for it. C. has been acting as a sort of intermediary. We both wound up having dreams about them last week, which is kind of crazy.
Yesterday, I was *really* low on spoons and just didn't feel up to tinkering on KVOTHE-ONE or really doing anything. The box is up and running pretty stable. `htop` shows Molly Brown chugging along at about 102 MB of memory usage. The whole system is using 113 MB. I wound up moving my sshd to a nonstandard port because it was getting absolutely hammered with failed login attempts. I might tinker around with `knockd`, a port knocking server, but I'm guessing it's not really necessary. Port knocking is basically opening ports on your firewall when you receive a prearranged network packet (or packets) at certain port(s). More here:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Port_knocking
Work has been a slog for the last month. I *think* I might not have to work overtime this weekend, so that's cool. It'll be nice to get back to a regular schedule so I can actually recharge on the weekend.
The kiddos start school this week. Fortunately, they'll be able to do virtual learning, so I'm not quite so worried about the inevitable COVID outbreak that schools reopening will cause. I fully anticipate that the school system will close down again shortly. I *am* super thankful that we're in the position where we can keep the kids at home. I feel badly for all the folks who don't have that same flexibility. Perhaps we're doing our part by reducing in-person head count? All my teacher friends are terrified and expect to get sick and it's just a nasty situation all-'round.
I need to get back to exercising and spending leisure time offline. Gaming, reading, that sort of thing. Tuning out is one of those ways I recover spoons, so I should probably do that. I don't know how the ex situation is gonna play out. I have hopes, of course.
Until next time, be well!
kvothe.