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Looking back at both middle school and elementary school I was constantly being scolded since I never applied myself with seriousness and conscientiousness to anything and anyway I could outperform by a very wide margin the best nerdy kids around, which meant I needed to be punished (!?? why the fuck would you punish the kid instead of just accelerating his school career?)
Yep. I have met some legitimately fascist teachers. Teachers who literally think gifted kids don't exist and that the "exemplar of ordinariness" is the only valid exemplar to assuage their narcissistic rage. Case in point: 5th grade teacher who accused me of plagiarism and marked me down. I didn't plagiarize. The principal stepped in and gave me an opportunity to make up for it. It was submitted as a national contest entry. I won the national contest and spoke to two senators as part of the win. The whole time my dad who is very similar to those teachers, only slightly better, tried to ruin it for me and make it about himself. These narcissistic fascist types are *everywhere* as a gifted kid/adult. It's not your fault, and it's a societal pathology. It is OK to be stellar, and your talent does not mean anything about their lack of it, other than when your existence doesn't have any meaning outside of what it means about them--aka, the narcissistic paradigm. These people do so much damage, so I'm glad to provide and make a space where people like you can heal assured that this space is free of them. That's why I made this; for people like you. So horrified.
Long story short I was attacked and harassed and mobbed by the whole fucking school council and teacher's council and they had most of my school grades HALVED, completely destroying my school career and possibility to access some needed scholarship for university.
Yep, that's the narcissistic fascist instantiation. It has capitalist, socialist, and communist variants. Anarchy is inherently anti-narcissist when it comes to abuse of power, so you're not going to see that in the anarchist community. But in all others there definitely have been versions of this type of popular narcissist fascism. Book burning, "no geniuses" boundary violations in the USSR, total violations with silencing features that had way too much in common with actual rape.
had a severely asyncronous development and I am diagnosed as Asperger subtype of Autism Spectrum Disorder with Level 1 support needs
Yes, when your development is asynchronous like that, you need someone specialized to not focus on just the gifted parts of the autistic cognition, or just the disabled parts. You need a specialist to get the deficits to be healed by the surpluses, creating a dynamic self-healing process. Most specialists are way too modular. There is tons of damage being done to the gifted autistic, I am sure, due to this failure to see multiple planes on the autistic cognitive milieu.
In my high school class there were two exceptionally gifted kids from very good families and they were the most beloved pupils of the school.
I think the "very good families" part is key there. Without family backing, these individuals are eaten alive by mobs such as this. Why active talent searches are still very much needed in socioeconomically impoverished countries where these abuses are most likely to happen without any strong family to step in and prevent it.
I still suffer from test anxiety and I have various cPTSD symptoms.
Yep. Absolute same diagnosis. If you were ever tested by someone who doesn't know how to look for psychological features such as anxiety, you know what being misplaced feels like. It started to get so obvious to me that I would just not take the test. I would throw my pencil on the floor and refuse and start crying.
Now I can only be tested through casual inquiry assessments. That's how grossly incompetent these testers were. It did real, permanent damage.
And yes, diagnosed cPTSD too. Bullied at home and at school on these grounds. Imagine that pain.
I'm so sorry you went through that. Again, this makes me so happy to be able to make this space for people like you.
Thanks for coming forward about what you went through. Society needs to know what damage it's doing to people who help heal and grow society. It can't keep being parasitic and expect us to stick around contributing. Like I said, the number of gifted adults floating or actually engaging in off grid is getting ridiculous. Society has a narcissistic pathology that's growing worse that it needs to face. Otherwise it can't demand what the gifted adult population offers.
Comment by Natural_Professor809 at 30/01/2024 at 01:58 UTC
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It started to get so obvious to me that I would just not take the test. I would throw my pencil on the floor and refuse and start crying.
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Comment by Natural_Professor809 at 30/01/2024 at 02:02 UTC
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And yes, diagnosed cPTSD too. Bullied at home and at school on these grounds. Imagine that pain.
I can imagine. Both giftedness and autism come with enhanced hypersensitivity pertaining senses, emotions, cosensitive empathy, sense of justice and truth. I remember well how I felt back then, I can imagine some people having it worse or feeling in similar ways (contrary to most believes we autistic people do have a theory of mind, it's just in little children that it usually develops both later and quite slowly; also we lack cognitive empathy but our cosensitive/emotional one is usually overdeveloped and hypersensitive).
I currently lack a cPTSD diagnosis mostly because I do not do drug abuse or self medication and I do not lash out at people easily: other than that I 100% am a textbook definition but some professionals told me it might be due to being autistic, traumatised and in severe burnout and that they'd rather avoid giving a plethora of psychiatric diagnoses that in my country could sometimes prove not as helpful as they can be stigmatising.