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View submission: Monthly Progress Thread - February '25
17 months
My insomnia and oversleeping have gone away, although I attribute this to the daily meditation practice I’ve started this month. (having the discipline to get to bed on time though, that’s a different story…) Getting to the point where I can meditate is a sign of progress, as it used to worsen my dissociation.
Anxious thoughts and pelvic floor tightness made a return this month due to the political climate in the states. However, I was much more capable of recognizing the problem and take steps to address it instead of getting bogged down in frustration or denial. Ended up seeing my therapist again for the first time in nine months, which helped.
Recurring dreams I’ve had for years have started to have different endings. For example, I’ll have a dream where I have to go back to high school as an adult, and I’ll be stressed about how to pass my classes and get out. This time my dream self went to the principal’s office and said hey, I’m a grown woman, I don’t belong here. I’ve seen similar anecdotes from others where dreams start to reflect a growing sense of agency as a result of healing, so I take this as a good sign.
I’ve had some sessions this month where the tremors were pretty subtle, like a pulsating sensation in my body instead of shaking. To an outsider it probably wouldn’t look like much, which is great because my first year of TRE looked like an exorcism lol.
My drive and motivation for life has started to return, which has been hugely lacking these past few years. I find motivation to do things like chores or make plans with friends, and feel satisfaction after. I’ve started thinking more seriously about what kind of career I want and what steps to take to get there.
Comment by Questionss2020 at 03/02/2025 at 01:15 UTC
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I've also seen recurring borderline nightmares about high school being unfinished for a few years, though in my case it's probably because my IT school *is* still unfinished (started in 2016).
Hopefully I'll be able to get my diploma this year, or at least have some kind of closure so that it doesn't hang over my head anymore.
Comment by baek12345 at 03/02/2025 at 16:57 UTC
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Thanks for sharing! What kind of meditation practice do you do?