https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/1j7ts6f/i_want_to_die_so_bad/
created by iegodark on 10/03/2025 at 08:13 UTC
73 upvotes, 12 top-level comments (showing 12)
Why am i who i am ? Why do i live ? I don't deserve anything except death now. Why my heart and my head hurt so much ? JUST WHY ?!
Comment by ZorDXYZ at 10/03/2025 at 08:27 UTC
16 upvotes, 2 direct replies
Cheers. I'm also having a mental breakdown at 4 am. I feel like life is like rape, but a thousand times worse, for some folks. No choice. Forced on you. You'll have to carry the burden of growing your unique personality, tastes, and peculiarities that make you be yourself, while having to watch them crumble, suffer and wither, without, ever, attaining happiness and contentment.
Also relate to the "deserving death" part. So many great and happy people with terminal cancer. Why not me? Why did I ever have to be born, if all my life ever meant was about being a clown, dancing around to the inhumane cruelty life has forced upon me?
Not really sure if there is a god out there. But if he does exist, wow, he is such a piece of fucking shit that would be able to make Hitler fuming of jealousy.
Comment by Bulky-Detective-6638 at 10/03/2025 at 11:25 UTC
2 upvotes, 1 direct replies
@OP: Let me tell you that this are not originally your thoughts
These thoughts are coming from a situation you couldn't control and you blamed yourself for it and you have started seeing yourself from society's perspective (society isn't happy and satisfied with anyone - ever)
And let me also tell you that only you and you only are your true friend and well wisher in this world. That means even when the whole world is criticizing you and blaming you - it's you who should not be judging you and stand for yourself and love yourself.
Show the middle finger to the world. World often makes people feel bad (world means people that we associate with)
Most of your social defeats or social stress are not your own but given by world.
So leave that on the table and free yourself from all these ridiculous thoughts that are not yours
Hope this helps brother !!!
Comment by theduke9400 at 10/03/2025 at 15:41 UTC
2 upvotes, 3 direct replies
I want to die but I don't want to kill myself. It's a real conundrum.
Comment by Vivid-Difference-281 at 10/03/2025 at 08:25 UTC
1 upvotes, 0 direct replies
You can be used for good. Don’t let prior tragedy tear you from future love.
Comment by obliveris at 10/03/2025 at 09:27 UTC
1 upvotes, 1 direct replies
How old are you ?
Comment by Smart-Ganache-510 at 10/03/2025 at 10:51 UTC
1 upvotes, 0 direct replies
Do die yet, just wait and savor the pain
Comment by [deleted] at 10/03/2025 at 10:57 UTC
1 upvotes, 1 direct replies
[removed]
Comment by Rddt50 at 10/03/2025 at 16:01 UTC
1 upvotes, 1 direct replies
Something that I find a lot of people don't understand is that some people don't feel calling have a strong passion for anything, they will just float through life.
I've not read every word of your comments, but it seems like you have. Tell those that think a person needs calling they are wrong.
A lot of people "give up", there are different levels of doing so, some drink/smoke the days away. You don't seem like an alcoholic, not sure about other substances. You may not see it, but it sounds like you are giving up less than other. Quods for that.
I can't offer any commentary on the "who someone is", not only do I not know you. But I don't like the proposition. If someone is, for example, "intelligent". That means that they are smarter than those around them. However if they were constantly surrounded by geniuses this would no longer be true, so the meaning is capricious. Alternatively if it's more human-species related then I don't understand why it's said.
That's all i have for now.
Comment by Vadim-Bondarenko at 10/03/2025 at 18:42 UTC
1 upvotes, 1 direct replies
Unfortunately life isn't fair, it's rough hard, but despite that I still believe that people who endure through such pain and struggles eventually become much powerful than those who life life in their comfort zone.
I don't know which events you have in life, but I think that you good, strong people, who wants to become better. I believe that you'll find a way to solve your problems, or change attitude to ones that you cannot change
Comment by BaronVonSaron at 10/03/2025 at 19:34 UTC
1 upvotes, 0 direct replies
Same man, I dont know why its so hard
Comment by codered8-24 at 10/03/2025 at 20:10 UTC
1 upvotes, 0 direct replies
I hate how people always feel bad for me. They know I'm a good person, I always did things the right way, and tried to treat everyone with respect, and yet somehow I keep getting dealt shitty cards.
The only thing I'll get for being a good person is people saying nice things about me at my funeral. Then after a while they'll forget about me anyway.
Comment by Infinite_Item_9636 at 10/03/2025 at 11:44 UTC
0 upvotes, 1 direct replies
Don't die yet. Just live for yourself. If you can't live for yourself, live for the others then. That's what I do in my life. Put yourself some small goals, even if they seems insignificant to the others.
Suffering is a part of life. You cannot evolve without pain. Live your life to the fullest.