https://www.reddit.com/r/ROCD/comments/1iiqfwj/help_please/
created by soupisfuckingshit on 06/02/2025 at 01:11 UTC
3 upvotes, 2 top-level comments (showing 2)
about 3 or so weeks ago i was with my girlfriend and then started to feel almost repulsed by her. these thoughts have now spiralled into the thought of breaking up with her and the question of “am i losing feelings for her?”. i dont understand why my brain does this to me but it feels so real, it genuinely feels like im falling out of love, and its causing me so much anxiety to the point of feeling physically ill. in reality i do love this person so so much, but i just cant feel it, im so lucky to have her, but it doesnt feel like it. ive talked to her a little bit about it and it makes me feel better short-term, same with testing whether i still have feelings by looking at old photos and trying to remember how i felt, or googling rocd symptoms, but it always comes back. we have just had a huge change in routine which may be something to do with it, and we did go out on a proper date last weekend and i immediately felt better, but it just came back. i dont want to lose her, but i feel so numb and its almost like a sense of indifference when i think about her sometimes too. thinking about the relationship makes me feel physically ill, seeing her makes me feel physically ill, and deep down i do know its rocd, but it feels SO real. i’ve dealt with a lot of trauma in other relationships and this is my first healthy relationship and it feels like my brain is starting to pick at problems because nothing is actually wrong. i just want my girl back :( i have experienced it before in other relationships too, but any advice for how im currently feeling, and some reassurance would be amazing. this is the only type of ocd i really experience this strongly, but ive dealt with other types before too. thank you :)
Comment by Bombadils_laugh at 06/02/2025 at 02:24 UTC
2 upvotes, 1 direct replies
That is how I feel right now. Had to postpone my wedding. You're not alone.
Comment by throwawaythingu at 06/02/2025 at 01:47 UTC
1 upvotes, 1 direct replies
https://www.reddit.com/r/ROCD/s/9BrWeBwb7I[1] Here’s a post I made detailing ROCD