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View submission: Help got BP ADHD and autism
So this is super, super fresh for you.
I got my ADHD diagnosis a year ago at 36. Whilst I haven’t sought an autism diagnosis, I’m fairly confident it’s there. For me this is combined with treatment resistant major depressive disorder, CPTSD, generalised and social anxiety, and PMDD.
It’s a lot. I felt like I was just getting a handle on the bevy of mental illnesses when I had the ADHD thrown on top of it all.
I have spent the last year attempting to be more compassionate with myself, taking the time to understand and rationalise that I’m not wrong or broken, just wired differently.
I am now medicated for the ADHD as well which helps. I haven’t pursued the autism diagnosis because I’m already modifying my life and behaviour to account for everything else, so just assume that’s in the mix too. Doing it this way causes me no harm.
But please, just sit this with a bit. Reflect on where you’ve come from and consider that it won’t be easy, but having a greater understanding of what you’re working with has the possibility of making your future look that much brighter.
Comment by jawncakes at 18/01/2025 at 10:47 UTC
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You're right. This is a valuable step into knowing and being more self-aware and self-accepting. It sheds light onto a few new and definitely twisty paths, yes, and seeing any glimpse of what's to come has always helped me prepare. Nothing has to be done right this moment: I need to feel and digest while remaining aware of the present state of the body. Good insight.
I am fighting also against my black and white thinking here: my parents being anti-everything prescribed by anyone, including vaccines, because they're anti-science pro-faith.
As a result, as independent adults, my sister and I went full tilt into the system for care. She has major depression and anxiety.
But my own background working as an admin clerk for a private holistic health provider taught me rationally to question the biomedical framework myself: building a strong therapeutic relationship is impossible if there is not trust involved (real solid trust backed by positive results, not leaps of blind faith), and on top of that trust is only possible with strong traits of openness and agreeableness in my opinion.
I'm an Iconoclast on the enneagream: I am not agreeable. I have core major trust issues which manifest as ODD. So take this with a grain of salt but...
...I don't trust my psychiatrist. On an inutitive level. Human to human, he strikes me as greasy in the mind. Slightly clammy and viscous. I'm not at all surprised he never flagged me for additional evaluation.