https://www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comments/1ij3m4u/what_made_you_not_give_up_on_yourself/
created by Fetus-Deletus1 on 06/02/2025 at 14:20 UTC
69 upvotes, 75 top-level comments (showing 25)
I can’t think of a reason to keep going besides my heels- that’s a bit shallow but not when you don’t have a family, partner, or friends.
Comment by SpicyCoookieee at 06/02/2025 at 14:46 UTC
60 upvotes, 3 direct replies
Honestly? The drive to prove my abusers wrong. I could survive without them. I could be BETTER without them.
Comment by Tricky_Jellyfish9810 at 06/02/2025 at 14:25 UTC
33 upvotes, 1 direct replies
Art and music for me.
Art to express emotions that I cannot put into words.
Music as a way of solace. + I feel understood through music.
Comment by Existing-Pin1773 at 06/02/2025 at 14:34 UTC
27 upvotes, 1 direct replies
Thinking that I was robbed from experiencing a good life for 32 years. I want to find out how other people are happy and find joy in things.
Comment by kittyscopeview at 06/02/2025 at 14:44 UTC
26 upvotes, 1 direct replies
Radical acceptance, body loyalty, and quality of life as mantras. "Had i not created my whole world, i would certainly have died in other people's." ~ Anaïs Nin
Comment by TransLadyFarazaneh at 06/02/2025 at 14:22 UTC
14 upvotes, 0 direct replies
Creative writing, honestly
Comment by MxRoboto at 06/02/2025 at 14:50 UTC
14 upvotes, 0 direct replies
Because that's what my abuser wants me to do, giving up my faith and my integrity isn't something I will ever allow.someone control over again. I survive out of pure spite most days 😅
Comment by ugly_dog_ at 06/02/2025 at 14:52 UTC
12 upvotes, 0 direct replies
the brief moments of happiness, regardless of how few and far between they have been at certain points in my life, i have clung to as evidence that life can be worth living. that, and to spite the people who would delight at news of my suicide
Comment by Le__MarcO at 06/02/2025 at 15:05 UTC
12 upvotes, 1 direct replies
The fact that we will most likely have one Life and i started enjoying all the small and simple things in life like sunsets or a smile. An if that good life would have start in my fourtys or sixtys, there was always a hope, that i can experience it and that all the pain will be worth it. How will i know, when i never try?
Thank god my good life startet at the age of 27, i fought my hole childhood, i haven't stopped and i have now 1,5 Years without major depression
Comment by Raised_by_Mr_Rogers at 06/02/2025 at 15:01 UTC
10 upvotes, 0 direct replies
Curiosity
Comment by Defiantly_Resilient at 06/02/2025 at 14:40 UTC
6 upvotes, 0 direct replies
I'm worth more than I think. I'm not going to let them decide what I am, what I deserve. I can be better than that, and I want to.
Comment by French_Toast_Runner at 06/02/2025 at 14:59 UTC
7 upvotes, 1 direct replies
Prolly just my ego. I know that's not the answer you are looking for but it is true. I don't wanna die.
Comment by TrickyAd9597 at 06/02/2025 at 15:02 UTC
8 upvotes, 0 direct replies
God for me. After the whole mess with my mom and sister brainwashed me to think I was kind and loving if I killed myself and gave everything to my sister so she would be happy, I was hospitalized. I came back home and stopped the drugs. I spent hours reading psalm out loud and talking back to this God who cares for me. And I filled my mind with those words for that year. It was so great. I don't do that anymore but, I always remember.
Comment by xmagpie at 06/02/2025 at 15:27 UTC
7 upvotes, 0 direct replies
At my lowest it was dogs, which sounds really awful because I have a loving husband but I knew he could understand what happened to me. There would be no way to explain to my dogs where momma went.
Now I’m extra motivated by anger and spite towards my government hah.
Comment by Big-Safety-6866 at 06/02/2025 at 14:54 UTC
6 upvotes, 0 direct replies
Working out, moving my body. It is what keeps me from falling apart.
Comment by Potential-Smile-6401 at 06/02/2025 at 14:54 UTC
6 upvotes, 1 direct replies
That there is beauty and potential in the world. I have seen and felt it. That there is beauty and potential in myself too.
Comment by hertruly at 06/02/2025 at 15:03 UTC
4 upvotes, 0 direct replies
im like really cool and have good takes so
Comment by LadyGuerrilla at 06/02/2025 at 15:25 UTC
4 upvotes, 0 direct replies
My cats, I could never abandon them, I'm all they have.
Comment by Cold_Figure8236 at 06/02/2025 at 15:38 UTC*
4 upvotes, 0 direct replies
53 years and still struggling. Somehow still worth the effort.
Comment by Kindly_Pianist_9087 at 06/02/2025 at 16:37 UTC
5 upvotes, 0 direct replies
The child in you deserves to have a happy life. It would be a tragedy to let all the shitty people who traumatized them rob them of a chance at simply existing in peace.
Comment by emushairpin at 06/02/2025 at 15:07 UTC
3 upvotes, 0 direct replies
Spite. Why do my abusers can do well and I cannot because I decided to end it? Fuck that. I deserve better, and I will achieve it.
Comment by sillypoxy at 06/02/2025 at 15:10 UTC
3 upvotes, 0 direct replies
My hate for rich people and this awful system and my grandiose "delusion" (we'll see about that) to stick it to em
Comment by ILovePeopleInTheory at 06/02/2025 at 15:38 UTC
3 upvotes, 0 direct replies
I met some good people along the way who believed the real me that I didn't hide was good too. So I figured I must not be as bad as the abusers said I was. Short story - friends.
Comment by autumnsnowflake_ at 06/02/2025 at 16:33 UTC
3 upvotes, 0 direct replies
Remembering how much my grandfather loved(loves?) me. He passed when I was 10.
Comment by Eemana613 at 06/02/2025 at 17:04 UTC
3 upvotes, 0 direct replies
Someone who knew me in the before telling me “your light is not gone, it is not out. It’s locked in a box inside you, but you’ve always protected that light, and that’s still there.”
Someone seeing some true essence of myself and that it was still there somehow made me realize there was still part of me that wanted to be alive and I wanted to get to know that part of me.
Comment by chouxphetiche at 06/02/2025 at 15:08 UTC
2 upvotes, 0 direct replies
Gardening. I love saving seeds and propagating.
By 'heels', do you mean shoes?