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View submission: Heavily Addicted to drugs, can't get out...
As someone who has used many drugs in the past as is now mostly a sober practicing bhuddist, I will say this. Your use of drugs is offering you an escape. An escape from your life, things that may scare you, things that worry you, things you don't like about yourself. Until you can identify what it is you are escaping and come to terms with it, it will be hard to quit without help. And even if you do, if you do not deal with these issues it will likely come back.
Sounds like you want to live life as a woman but you have not accepted yourself, nor have the people around you accepted it. Your christian environment is likely telling you everything you are doing is a sin. So you will not admit the truth to yourself. And you use drugs as a guise/excuse to do what you want in the moment without repurcusions and then blame it on the drug.
Nothing wrong with wanting to dress and live life as a woman. Since there have been humans there have been people like this in every culture.
There's nothing here!