11/08/24
listening to: roses are falling - orville peck
a slow week this time. feeling overwhelmed, many big things are in progress, heat and mosquitoes meant bad sleeping, there are random pains and aches. all that translates to some emotional disregulation as well, there was a big sad episode about our last pet.
didn't do much art. my days feel crowded now, daily meditation and particularly language learning use up a lot of my motivation, i'm not used to it yet. after i do the things i Have To it's hard to do what i Want To. it's ok, summer is just that slow time for me. i'll try, but not too hard.
but of course there were good things as well:
looking forward to the temperatures dropping later next week. who knows, maybe it will even start to feel like autumn?? oh how i love autumn. except for the part where it always tempts me to try and have a Schedule, like at school. because those feel way too constraining. self-directed activities in response to available energy levels are much more efficient, i just need to remember to actually monitor my energy and Do Things if i have it.
hope y'all are thriving out there, read you next time.
