• I was feeling really bad yesterday and I ended up attempting suicide chemically in a way that could only end in me having stomach pain. I am glad the actual time spent self harming was minimal, that I was taken care of, that I am better today. I want to get better at managing feelings of lonely hollowness.
• I deep cleaned my desk this morning, re-tied the stings around the bundle of wires to avoid getting it in the way and put the wheels on the desk chair.
• I'm really exhausted today... I'm kind of glad it fell on a friday so I could rest on the weekend, but I'm a little bothered by how much I slept today.
• Watched more きのう何食べた? with family over lunch, and both my mom and I are finding it really sweet.
• I played TFT with Amary and even though my build was doing a lot of damage (Spellweaver, Emo, Hyperpop) we still lost. Wah!
• I'm struggling to make ends meet again. My parents haven't asked for expenses and rent for November yet, but my mom's vibes were off today and she kept commenting on money, so I'm assuming they'll ask for it soon and once again, I have like 10€.